so...

had a chill time with wayne and tim last night, shopping and watching a movie. a tradition we haven't done in a while, too busy with school stuff. but as senior year rapidly approaches a close, seems pretty surreal, that all the people that are around me now, won't be for long. damn. yeah, wayne and tim forced me to watch the fourth kind last night, i almost peed myself cause i thought it was gonna be so scary. they both weren't scared at all and were disappointed. the movie was jumpy, but in the long run, i wasn't too scared, although it made me think quite a bit.

then yep, today was nothing out of the ordinary, practice was tiring and what not. afterwards, my parents were out so i had to buy myself dinner. after dropping jane and david off, i went to jamba juice for a strawberries wild. refreshing as usual. and then i went across the street to L&L to get some food. oh man, so amazing. then i plopped down in front of the tv on the couch with my food, and watched some sunday night football.

now of course as usual, comes the sentimental side of my entry.

so these past few days, weeks, months, or however long its been, i've been doing pretty well with this thing. but this past weekend and especially today, it feels like i'm losing the battle. i'm not so confident in myself or so comfortable in my own skin. maybe its the thought that i'm gonna be leaving the valley soon [hopefully?] that makes me feel uneasy. its just... my mind can't help but wander, to the past, present, and future. i'll get through this, i'm sure. or i hope.

oh and on a lighter, but still somewhat sentimental, note, schools alright. don't really care about the academic stuff, but its been good finally getting into school spirit. actually going to events, cheering for my school team, and stuff, feels good. hanging out with my school friends and getting closer to them, its been good for me. and jacob, who thankfully won't read this, we've been "best friends" for a while. but this year, its like we got a lot closer, chilling and stuff. good stuff.