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So today was pretty much the average school day. Well, in government we voted on our class superlatives, and people told me they voted me for best smile. What the heck were they thinking... 'cause i mean:
1. i don't have the most perfect teeth
2. there are wayyyyy more people with nicer smiles
3. i can't even smile on purpose...

weird stuff. then after school, nothing much, i just came home, made myself some food, ate, and then came into my room and pretty much wasted some more time doing nothing.

But at around 6, I decided to go to the Porter Ranch library so I could study for my SAT2 in peace and quiet. But instead of being alone and studious, I ended up sitting with David and Andrew. But, I didn't mind one bit, it was chill just sitting with them joking around and getting a bit of work done.

I then came home to a very sick mom, which meant that I had to go out to dinner with my dad and sister. And out of nowhere, I got this really eerie feeling, like I didn't feel right anywhere, not even in my own skin. I don't know, it's not even like i'm depressed or anything, its just simply strange...

But yeah, we'll see how the rest of the week goes.


oh and the whole "at peace" thing apparently wasn't as true as i thought. i probably seem really bipolar and indecisive but yeah, i was just being naive, and i guess this is the real way i should be going. i'm going to try and reduce bitterness, but that doesn't mean i'm gonna give in. some people just make me mad and sick to my stomach all the time