senior year!

this time last year, or any other year before that, i'd normally be freaking out and all stressed and worried about finals. i would've been studying all week long, the week before. i'd be pulling late nighters, trying to cram in that last bit of information. but this year, it feels so surreal and nice, not having to study. while everybody is worried, and their facebook statuses are all about giving up and all that, i'm just having the time of my life haha. this feels nice :D

and its pretty ironic, this one game of madden that i played just now caused me more stress and anxiety than all of my finals this year combined. hehe

so yeah, i've been thinking about college more and more these days. and, i'm not sure where i want to go. my mom asked me, if i were to get into every school, which i'd prefer. and i honestly have NO IDEA. i'm not one of those kids with the dream school or anything, so its pretty confusing.

my choices keep changing, because, its a given that i want to leave the valley. but how far is too far? i mean, UCLA, USC, and Occidental are all colleges i can come on like every weekend. but then UCI, UCSD, and UCSB are the schools that are far enough, but not so close that i can come for no good reason. and then Berkeley, pretty far, but still in Cali. And the east coast schools are the schools where i'd get a completely fresh start, something that seems very appealing to me right now. but in those cases, its like coming home for only the MAJOR events and even if i was super homesick, theres nothing i could do about it y'know?

but on a lighter note, college life seems really fun. i think i'm not gonna eat dorm food so much and i'm gonna try cooking for myself. i'm sure a lot of students say that, but i'm still going to try to!

yep, nobody even blogs or reads these things anymore. i feel schizophrenic writing these things haha, maybe i'll take a break.