Tick Tick Boom

It’s funny how Tumblr, er, just blogs in general, make people seem a lot more profound than they really are… It’s like people are trying to show off the vocabulary words they learned in SAT class, or just trying to put up a front. I mean, it’s kind of ridiculous, because anybody can use big words, but I think the true art lies in making them flow naturally. Weaving them into the sentences, to complement them, not overpower. But then again, maybe to other people, I’m the exact same? I hope not.

I still don’t really feel like writing much… it’s not because I’m all depressed or whatever. I guess the senioritis started in my brain and spread to my heart. Sort of, not really, haha I just don’t feel motivated to write. But lately, I’ve been feeling a tugging at my heart… I honestly don’t know what it is and I can’t really classify, what or why. It’s just one of those feelings where I want to go on top of a mountain, scream my lungs out, and then go do something amazing. I’ve been really into singing praise songs lately too, I feel convicted and challenged to really step up in the high school ministry. I want to do something to set up something outstanding, something that people will look at and think, “Wow, those kids really love God.” If you go to Church Everyday, you’ll know what I mean when I say this, but I’m so sick of hearing everyone talk about how crazy the junior high ministry is. Don’t get me wrong, I am totally excited about what Kevin and the teachers are doing there. I get annoyed because, guys, we can do it too. The God we worship is the same, heck, we’re even older, so shouldn’t we be capable of doing even greater things?! I mean, age isn’t a factor with God, but I just feel that, personally, I am nowhere near functioning and performing to my highest capability. And I think that my inability to do my best is really disrespectful to God. Maybe that’s what has been tugging at me lately. Or maybe I’m wrong, who knows.

And… I’m thinking about getting a different hairstyle. It’s been like 2 years since I started buzz-cutting my hair, and maybe it’s time for change? But even if I decide to change things up, I don’t know what I would do about my hair… Any suggestions?