why is it that its the guys that ALWAYS have to text or call or message first...
and women fight for equality, pfttt -_-

What i want to be when i grow up

I want to be that chill dad that's cool to talk to y'know? like in all those movies and tv shows, where the dad [usually white] is all funny and hip and stuff haha. i want to be able to spoil my kids without having them be spoiled. be stern, yet lax at the same time.

what i DON'T want to be when i grow up is the typical asian parent. i mean, i'm not hating on my culture, but i mean, after 17 years, it gets pretty tedious... like how they emphasize all the academically related stuff unreasonably. i mean yeah, its important, but there's so much more to life than just that.

maybe i'm talking like this just because i'm biased but... yeah haha as of now, thats how i feel.

and this isn't really venting, just something i noticed. i really really really really really really x1000000 don't like it when people just stop replying to me out of nowhere... like whether it be on text, facebook, aim or whatever. i mean if you want to end the conversation or not talk anymore, okay, fine with me, say bye, give me a dead reply but don't just leave me hanging without a reply at all -_- mann that gets on my nerves lol

my fudd-tastic day

so it is 8:28 PM and i just got home a couple minutes ago. and i am tiredddd, mentally and physically. last night, i got home from a fun night at like... 12:20'ish and when i went to bed, i didn't fall asleep for like 2 hours... so i basically got like 4 hours of sleep, blehh. today, woke up early, praise practice, church, and then football practice. dudeeeee so tired and when we scrimmaged i was already dead soo... yeah. we did pretty badly and i take most of the blame cause i was not throwing well or anything. fml.

and then after, fuddruckers with wayne tim josh arthur justin and dani for joshiks birthday. freaking amazing omfg. then we walked around @ the mall for a bit, and free frozen yogurt! then went home and yep.

i've noticed that my blogspot has been, what daniel would say, a ventspot. and thats not cool, cause nobody likes reading about a sad dudes life haha and i no longer want to be that person. so yep change of attitude as well as a change of blog.

btw, no school tomorrow! YESSS

title-less

So today was pretty much the average school day. Well, in government we voted on our class superlatives, and people told me they voted me for best smile. What the heck were they thinking... 'cause i mean:
1. i don't have the most perfect teeth
2. there are wayyyyy more people with nicer smiles
3. i can't even smile on purpose...

weird stuff. then after school, nothing much, i just came home, made myself some food, ate, and then came into my room and pretty much wasted some more time doing nothing.

But at around 6, I decided to go to the Porter Ranch library so I could study for my SAT2 in peace and quiet. But instead of being alone and studious, I ended up sitting with David and Andrew. But, I didn't mind one bit, it was chill just sitting with them joking around and getting a bit of work done.

I then came home to a very sick mom, which meant that I had to go out to dinner with my dad and sister. And out of nowhere, I got this really eerie feeling, like I didn't feel right anywhere, not even in my own skin. I don't know, it's not even like i'm depressed or anything, its just simply strange...

But yeah, we'll see how the rest of the week goes.


oh and the whole "at peace" thing apparently wasn't as true as i thought. i probably seem really bipolar and indecisive but yeah, i was just being naive, and i guess this is the real way i should be going. i'm going to try and reduce bitterness, but that doesn't mean i'm gonna give in. some people just make me mad and sick to my stomach all the time

hmm

yeah so i think i'm at peace now. i'm going to go with the flow and just let things unfold by themselves. and with _______, i'm just not gonna act on my feelings and let that go however it goes too.

only thing i have to focus on now is sat 2's and apps, afl;kejq;o4c8asdlk

lol.

i think i'm sprung. but its okay, i'm going to get myself out!

lol.

i think i'm sprung. but its okay, i'm going to get myself out!